Gaming for the computerphob on a spiritual path
.....and definitely not young enough to be part of the gamer generation
By Christiane Wolters

I remember the first time I played a video game online. I had bought a computer just for that purpose as I did not have anything but a friend's old laptop he had set up for me which I used for e-mail only. I am computerphob, that is worse than a noob, you see. (In case you do not know what a noob is, you most certainly are one!)
I had to install the game with some help and then, there I was in the rogue encampment with my amazon. I thought she moved a bit awkwardly, but I got used to it.

It it too embarrassing to tell you how long it took me to use the keyboard for any gaming functions. I used the little picture thingys there.

Anyway, soon enough I ventured out there into the wilderness looking for some den as the quest required. ..and I encountered some monsters making strange noises. My job was to kill them. Geez, I am not into killing and it was with some discomfort that I did. Noticing the internal body sensations while doing this, I wondered at the time how this will change me... you know, the me here behind the screen.

So the journey started...and what an adventure it has been in the 2 years and 6 weeks since then. It changed my life. Mind you, I was ready, but without experiencing what happened in gaming, I would not be where I am today: in boot camp for the next Bardo.

The only reason I finally decided to play a videogame was this: It was recommended as a powerful TOOL by someone who had shown up on my path as the one I was supposed to work with.

And....I really wanted to play the GODD games, and playing this game was part of the preparation for it.

"You'll have to work hard on your tendencies toward anger, jealousy, hatred, violence, unconscious reactions, exhaustion, and fear." ~ ~ E.J. Gold, American Book of the Dead.